Day 27 // March 12

Day 27 // March 12

Journey in light and love
John 3:19-21
Contributed by: Danna Coffey, Director Parents’ Morning Out

“This is the basis for judgment: The light came into the world, and people loved darkness more than the light, for their actions are evil. All who do wicked things hate the light and don’t come to the light for fear that their actions will be exposed to the light. Whoever does the truth comes to the light so that it can be seen that their actions were done in God.”

Remember all the hype surrounding Y2K? The fear that life as we knew it was about to come crashing down? Well, we survived Y2K! We got the last laugh. Life was good. We had a nice home in a nice neighborhood with great neighbors. We had found a church we loved. My husband was working in his dream job and I had recently discovered how much I loved teaching. Our children were healthy and thriving. Yes, life in the 2000s was very good! Until it wasn’t…

My husband was diagnosed with melanoma. Events happened that temporarily broke our marriage. One of my young students died of leukemia. 9/11 happened and my husband was with President Bush.

I have always been prone to sadness in the dark of winter, but suddenly, I was sad all the time. It got to the point where it was all I could do to get up and go to work. My 9-year-old basically took over the care of her 7-year-old brother. The wonderful neighbors helped as I sat on my deck and cried. I poured through my Bible randomly, searching for words of comfort. I felt as if I were in a deep pit or well. Sometimes I could see a sliver of light but mostly it was just dark and I was at the bottom.

I reached a point where all I felt was sadness and despair. But as I sat on the deck with my Bible and my tears, I would hear a voice saying, “Look up, Danna. Just keep looking up.” Up was where the light was.

At one point, I heard, “You have to call. Your children need you!” I finally called the doctor and they saw my distress and got me in to see a psychiatrist immediately. I was diagnosed with Situational Depression. Through a regimen of therapy and medication, the darkness began to fade and the light got brighter. It didn’t happen overnight but I gradually crawled out of that pit. Through it all, I felt God there, saying, “Keep looking up. Just keep looking up.”

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